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I mean
neither should my IDOLA it will only confuse the signals. There Diana we became
so close so quickly I make the mistake of believing I am typing to my IDOLA
direct rather than using you as a channelling medium as my IDOLA can read my
words wherever she is but to have the thought in my mind that I am typing to
someone real-time asking for advice and any help that a woman can give me is
gratefully received and much appreciated even if you don’t really know me, thanks.
We covered that I am a priceless being with a GREAT DEAL to offer her, A DEAL
SHE CAN'T POSSIBLY FIND ANYWHERE ELSE so what about her? She needs to do away
with the calculation of material goods and services as playing any part in her
evaluation of whether love is real as she has already achieved that part of the
equation....my IDOLA has enough to last her for now or at least until she has
reached a conclusion whether she has found 'TRUE LOVE' and that it is 'FOR
REAL'. The Shamans wisdom like your question of your Animal Spirit helps as my
IDOLA already has answered her question. Her very thoughts and conjectures are,
unlike most people, well documented as are most Queens, for I did not properly
mention that my IDOLA is a real Queen, but majestic she is Official. In her
interviews when asked about what the key thing in any relationship and here I
will add that she is the most followed person on Earth and therefore when she
speaks Philosophically she has to be very accurate as her position and her words
are so influential to the people she professes to love like friends her fans
and she would not deliberately lie to this audience, she can be quoted as
saying (I have a recording of it) that 'COMMUNICATION' is the key in any
relationship. Now her problem is not that she does not know the answers but her
problem is that she offers good advice and great wisdom but does not heed her
own advice which she openly admits on her tumblr blog blaming her wish to be
MOM to so many she forgets herself. So the Shamans advice is for her to use her
brains to think of herself for once rather than others to put herself at the
center of her own Universe and to take heed of that wisdom that she should
utilize all the communication methods assailable in her armoury as she must be
on the cusp of finding true happiness and fulfilment if she gets this right
because remember here she has found one who truly loves her eternally for real
so 50% of her search for engulfment in happiness is established beyond
reasonable doubt then half the figure of 50% to 25% by SHARING HER PROBLEMS
with the ONE WHO TRULY LOVES HER, me JOHN, now within a paragraph she is
searching for a smaller integer as any problem however big should be broken
down into its smallest parts then you can work on it in manageable pieces. Can
she share the problem by Magic? NO because the Shaman is inundated with Magical
passes and methods from so many her very signals are confused and lost in the
myriad of messages that the Shaman faces throughout his life because the Shaman
works in a team as his IDOLA has said in interviews that she is only interested
in TEAM-PLAYERS and the Shamans team is so great it is the whole of the very
Universe itself and the Shaman has great advantage in problem solving because
of his admitted obsession and total emotional commitment towards his IDOLA he
can throw his Queens own advice and Philosophy back at her to use because he
listened to her song words and took the messages on board and when his Queen
sings so sweetly that 'all we have is this moment' he took his time to be
successful in love and instead of using the time given to do other less noble less
virtuous things like work to be able to afford his IDOLA he spent the time more
wisely by researching his IDOLA and with his photographic memory knows about as
much about his IDOLA as she herself allowed herself to know about herself and
thus speaks with great wisdom and knowledge when he tells his IDOLA to use this
mantra when self-questioning 'KNOW THYSELF' and she should allocate more time
to her relationship than she does for it carries greater significance and
importance than anything else in her life. Because if she has found true, real
love, it is the greatest force in the Universe. Now in one sweep of wisdom I
have answered her questions all in one. If love is the greatest force in the
Universe and should be the most important thing in her life she should know
that as my team is the whole Universe she has in fact been matched by the
Universe and it is therefore not an attraction or superficial 'here today gone
tomorrow' fad or fashn or a matter of lust NO it is meant to be therefore let
her read her right arm tattoo NOW='GO WITH THE FLOW'. I.e. GO WITH THE LOVE
THAT HAS BEEN PRESENTED HER BY THE FLOW OF THE UNIVERSAL MIND as that is so important
to her she makes it a permanent fixture on her arm. I will post here and
continue on word as I can't read my flow in a message box and I think that this
'moment' is too important for me to become a better person for her to love not
to have the benefit of reflection so I will copy and paste and catch you later.
So far So GOOD eh?
neither should my IDOLA it will only confuse the signals. There Diana we became
so close so quickly I make the mistake of believing I am typing to my IDOLA
direct rather than using you as a channelling medium as my IDOLA can read my
words wherever she is but to have the thought in my mind that I am typing to
someone real-time asking for advice and any help that a woman can give me is
gratefully received and much appreciated even if you don’t really know me, thanks.
We covered that I am a priceless being with a GREAT DEAL to offer her, A DEAL
SHE CAN'T POSSIBLY FIND ANYWHERE ELSE so what about her? She needs to do away
with the calculation of material goods and services as playing any part in her
evaluation of whether love is real as she has already achieved that part of the
equation....my IDOLA has enough to last her for now or at least until she has
reached a conclusion whether she has found 'TRUE LOVE' and that it is 'FOR
REAL'. The Shamans wisdom like your question of your Animal Spirit helps as my
IDOLA already has answered her question. Her very thoughts and conjectures are,
unlike most people, well documented as are most Queens, for I did not properly
mention that my IDOLA is a real Queen, but majestic she is Official. In her
interviews when asked about what the key thing in any relationship and here I
will add that she is the most followed person on Earth and therefore when she
speaks Philosophically she has to be very accurate as her position and her words
are so influential to the people she professes to love like friends her fans
and she would not deliberately lie to this audience, she can be quoted as
saying (I have a recording of it) that 'COMMUNICATION' is the key in any
relationship. Now her problem is not that she does not know the answers but her
problem is that she offers good advice and great wisdom but does not heed her
own advice which she openly admits on her tumblr blog blaming her wish to be
MOM to so many she forgets herself. So the Shamans advice is for her to use her
brains to think of herself for once rather than others to put herself at the
center of her own Universe and to take heed of that wisdom that she should
utilize all the communication methods assailable in her armoury as she must be
on the cusp of finding true happiness and fulfilment if she gets this right
because remember here she has found one who truly loves her eternally for real
so 50% of her search for engulfment in happiness is established beyond
reasonable doubt then half the figure of 50% to 25% by SHARING HER PROBLEMS
with the ONE WHO TRULY LOVES HER, me JOHN, now within a paragraph she is
searching for a smaller integer as any problem however big should be broken
down into its smallest parts then you can work on it in manageable pieces. Can
she share the problem by Magic? NO because the Shaman is inundated with Magical
passes and methods from so many her very signals are confused and lost in the
myriad of messages that the Shaman faces throughout his life because the Shaman
works in a team as his IDOLA has said in interviews that she is only interested
in TEAM-PLAYERS and the Shamans team is so great it is the whole of the very
Universe itself and the Shaman has great advantage in problem solving because
of his admitted obsession and total emotional commitment towards his IDOLA he
can throw his Queens own advice and Philosophy back at her to use because he
listened to her song words and took the messages on board and when his Queen
sings so sweetly that 'all we have is this moment' he took his time to be
successful in love and instead of using the time given to do other less noble less
virtuous things like work to be able to afford his IDOLA he spent the time more
wisely by researching his IDOLA and with his photographic memory knows about as
much about his IDOLA as she herself allowed herself to know about herself and
thus speaks with great wisdom and knowledge when he tells his IDOLA to use this
mantra when self-questioning 'KNOW THYSELF' and she should allocate more time
to her relationship than she does for it carries greater significance and
importance than anything else in her life. Because if she has found true, real
love, it is the greatest force in the Universe. Now in one sweep of wisdom I
have answered her questions all in one. If love is the greatest force in the
Universe and should be the most important thing in her life she should know
that as my team is the whole Universe she has in fact been matched by the
Universe and it is therefore not an attraction or superficial 'here today gone
tomorrow' fad or fashn or a matter of lust NO it is meant to be therefore let
her read her right arm tattoo NOW='GO WITH THE FLOW'. I.e. GO WITH THE LOVE
THAT HAS BEEN PRESENTED HER BY THE FLOW OF THE UNIVERSAL MIND as that is so important
to her she makes it a permanent fixture on her arm. I will post here and
continue on word as I can't read my flow in a message box and I think that this
'moment' is too important for me to become a better person for her to love not
to have the benefit of reflection so I will copy and paste and catch you later.
So far So GOOD eh?
Chat
conversation end
conversation end
Phew I have just been to marriage guidance
counselling as I lost faith in my idola no not her in myself now I was
analysing for her but I must remember all that I have learnt and one thing I
know about my idola is nobody talks for her she is quite capable and strong
enough to have her own voice on ALL matters so I thought that maybe it would be
better to speak only for myself and my relationship goals then if she picks up
on them then she can decide whether or not she wants to help me achieve those
goals or not as there is a quandary too many relationships fail because each
partner immediately wants to make changes in each other so I ask myself a
question. ‘If time were to freeze right now this second abra cadabra would I be
happy with my partner just as she is at this moment as there would be no chance
of a change’ and my fundamental answer has to be; YES. Since our very
beginnings the funny outcome was that ‘we found love right where we are’. She
has NEVER really asked me to make any changes and she has demanded nothing from
me apart from my love, no rules ‘just love’ and I only have perceptions of
possible changes that I should make in order that I could feel some input into
wanting to make myself better for her but she loves me in the here and now not
any Rainbows or in my case Double Rainbows that I am chasing or have sold to
her. It may well be that because I shared my future potential and big dreams
with her that might be attractive for my future is as bright as a firework BUT
it was me as I am that really sold it to her. Maybe I can feel a problem I have
is that it is twofold; 1] I have already achieved a maximum potential in
societies aim of brilliance in a man; the normal goals such as millionaire
status, rich and famous contacts, huge social life, world travel, record
breaking athlete, fit soldier, great career as a billionaire trader, loved by
everyone I came into contact with, a female dreamboat, happiness in being
myself, enchanting mannerisms, handsome good looks, great dress sense oh the
list would be much longer lol I WISH but I cut my potential short by giving up
on the path to the top that I was on and chose another route a different path
to travel and on that different path I actually achieved more in myself than I
would of done just by making myself socially acceptable, I am a better more
rounded person now much wiser but although it should not matter the one thing
that I gave up that I wish I had not or at least so severely cut out of my life
was 2) Money or my lack of it as it offers one the means to utilize ones
potential that I have found out to my personal cost that fuck all can be
achieved without it. Save I found love without it but I am now in possession of
knowledge that is priceless and can be converted into financial gain but at
what cost to my sanity or to my relationship. I have found happiness right
where I am living in abstract poverty but there is always room for improvement
as I place my relationship goals above anything else in my life as my idola has
written herself that she thinks the very same thing as I do (Sign of
compatibility and I love those signs as I am under the impression that
opposites attract as they do in Physics and while she is a Purrfect 10 in
beauty and persona I am a weirdo in comparison battle scarred and far from
perfect but I love her and she loves me). My love and worship of my idola is
THE most important thing to me and as I have been matched by the universe I
must remind myself that I not only rule the universe in my mind but I actually
rule over an ever expanding universe and my idola knows more than I give her
credit for she knows that our relationship is ‘evolving’ not just simply ‘being’.
She has been perfect in that aspect of allowing me time to evolve with it and
not putting me under any pressure for instant change or wishing I was something
else for she knows I have not been born long. And on that compliment I will
just pop into another nasty world of making some money for my immediate needs
in order to continue allocating time to my love and worship of my idola for in
keeping my journal apparently I will find my answers and as I am possessed of
an enquiring mind answers I do seek.
counselling as I lost faith in my idola no not her in myself now I was
analysing for her but I must remember all that I have learnt and one thing I
know about my idola is nobody talks for her she is quite capable and strong
enough to have her own voice on ALL matters so I thought that maybe it would be
better to speak only for myself and my relationship goals then if she picks up
on them then she can decide whether or not she wants to help me achieve those
goals or not as there is a quandary too many relationships fail because each
partner immediately wants to make changes in each other so I ask myself a
question. ‘If time were to freeze right now this second abra cadabra would I be
happy with my partner just as she is at this moment as there would be no chance
of a change’ and my fundamental answer has to be; YES. Since our very
beginnings the funny outcome was that ‘we found love right where we are’. She
has NEVER really asked me to make any changes and she has demanded nothing from
me apart from my love, no rules ‘just love’ and I only have perceptions of
possible changes that I should make in order that I could feel some input into
wanting to make myself better for her but she loves me in the here and now not
any Rainbows or in my case Double Rainbows that I am chasing or have sold to
her. It may well be that because I shared my future potential and big dreams
with her that might be attractive for my future is as bright as a firework BUT
it was me as I am that really sold it to her. Maybe I can feel a problem I have
is that it is twofold; 1] I have already achieved a maximum potential in
societies aim of brilliance in a man; the normal goals such as millionaire
status, rich and famous contacts, huge social life, world travel, record
breaking athlete, fit soldier, great career as a billionaire trader, loved by
everyone I came into contact with, a female dreamboat, happiness in being
myself, enchanting mannerisms, handsome good looks, great dress sense oh the
list would be much longer lol I WISH but I cut my potential short by giving up
on the path to the top that I was on and chose another route a different path
to travel and on that different path I actually achieved more in myself than I
would of done just by making myself socially acceptable, I am a better more
rounded person now much wiser but although it should not matter the one thing
that I gave up that I wish I had not or at least so severely cut out of my life
was 2) Money or my lack of it as it offers one the means to utilize ones
potential that I have found out to my personal cost that fuck all can be
achieved without it. Save I found love without it but I am now in possession of
knowledge that is priceless and can be converted into financial gain but at
what cost to my sanity or to my relationship. I have found happiness right
where I am living in abstract poverty but there is always room for improvement
as I place my relationship goals above anything else in my life as my idola has
written herself that she thinks the very same thing as I do (Sign of
compatibility and I love those signs as I am under the impression that
opposites attract as they do in Physics and while she is a Purrfect 10 in
beauty and persona I am a weirdo in comparison battle scarred and far from
perfect but I love her and she loves me). My love and worship of my idola is
THE most important thing to me and as I have been matched by the universe I
must remind myself that I not only rule the universe in my mind but I actually
rule over an ever expanding universe and my idola knows more than I give her
credit for she knows that our relationship is ‘evolving’ not just simply ‘being’.
She has been perfect in that aspect of allowing me time to evolve with it and
not putting me under any pressure for instant change or wishing I was something
else for she knows I have not been born long. And on that compliment I will
just pop into another nasty world of making some money for my immediate needs
in order to continue allocating time to my love and worship of my idola for in
keeping my journal apparently I will find my answers and as I am possessed of
an enquiring mind answers I do seek.
I made the money it just was not instant pay-outs
but I bought Toilet Rolls with the change from my rolling tobacco so all else
can wait for if I had real money I would not be writing my journal but would be
off consuming junk no doubt. Now where was I? Oh yes marriage guidance
counselling and I reached a mini conclusion that I AM happy with my idola just
as she is now and if time froze I would be happy to be her man as she is which
is very good I think and I do hope she appreciates my conclusion upon that and
receives it as the compliment that I mean it to be but we have already
established that our relationship is in a state of flux I.e. it evolves, so
during the course of its evolution I am satisfied that her women’s perception
and intuition will pick up on any things that I would like to make something
that is good-better which helps me to understand that although I fell in love
with her with quite a bang it was not plain sailing. (It was on a Sunday
afternoon and I was hit with something like a sledgehammer as love hit me
straight in the middle of the heart as an Angel guided me to reach a point
where all the Planets were aligned, the Universe was calm and I was ready with
enough ‘self-love’ for myself to be able to ‘fall head over heels’ in love and
I remember contacting her on the net [note it was her who I immediately
contacted first, a sign!] to tell her that I don’t know ‘who’ exactly I had
suddenly fallen in Love with but that it had happened and what’s more I WAS IN
LOVE UNCONDITIONALLY even if there was no condition as to who I had fallen in
love with exactly and she was happy for me, understatement, she sent me a
picture of her with a bottle of KRUG in the back of a limousine in a cat suit and
a big happy smile as she knew it was her that I had fallen in love with even if
I didn’t. I know this now. OMG I had only known her a couple of weeks it was
unbelievable for anyone who didn’t believe in Magic which I do and always have
done. I BELIEVE.)
but I bought Toilet Rolls with the change from my rolling tobacco so all else
can wait for if I had real money I would not be writing my journal but would be
off consuming junk no doubt. Now where was I? Oh yes marriage guidance
counselling and I reached a mini conclusion that I AM happy with my idola just
as she is now and if time froze I would be happy to be her man as she is which
is very good I think and I do hope she appreciates my conclusion upon that and
receives it as the compliment that I mean it to be but we have already
established that our relationship is in a state of flux I.e. it evolves, so
during the course of its evolution I am satisfied that her women’s perception
and intuition will pick up on any things that I would like to make something
that is good-better which helps me to understand that although I fell in love
with her with quite a bang it was not plain sailing. (It was on a Sunday
afternoon and I was hit with something like a sledgehammer as love hit me
straight in the middle of the heart as an Angel guided me to reach a point
where all the Planets were aligned, the Universe was calm and I was ready with
enough ‘self-love’ for myself to be able to ‘fall head over heels’ in love and
I remember contacting her on the net [note it was her who I immediately
contacted first, a sign!] to tell her that I don’t know ‘who’ exactly I had
suddenly fallen in Love with but that it had happened and what’s more I WAS IN
LOVE UNCONDITIONALLY even if there was no condition as to who I had fallen in
love with exactly and she was happy for me, understatement, she sent me a
picture of her with a bottle of KRUG in the back of a limousine in a cat suit and
a big happy smile as she knew it was her that I had fallen in love with even if
I didn’t. I know this now. OMG I had only known her a couple of weeks it was
unbelievable for anyone who didn’t believe in Magic which I do and always have
done. I BELIEVE.)
So you have the background to
where I find myself now which is a happy place to be and I have a moment to
bask in this happiness because whatever she does and however much she might
hurt me, even inadvertently, I am able to forgive even if my initial reaction
is shock and shout as, and this is most important I love her UNCONDTIONALLY.
And this a very positive thing for her to know as I have no hang-ups, no
self-doubt and if I blow Hot and Cold that is just a mood swing disorder called
Unipolar/Bipolar which I admitted to her and she knows I suffer from as not
only does she know of my affliction but she also has it (small world) and I am
being professionally treated for it. Any other minor problems are therefore
just superficial and can be remedied. For the two greatest states of mind to be
in are 1) To be in love with someone who loves you back and 2) To experience an
unconditional love for someone who also loves you back in the same way. The
best of both worlds so Diana are you happy for your Facebook friend? And I thank you for allowing me to use you
for me to reach that conclusion that I am a very lucky boy for I am (if only
you knew who my idola is and I have not given away that secret, you would know
that she is one of the most desirable girls on Earth bereft of beauty, fame and
fortune, a winner in every sense of the word). And now she has won me for I am
hers no others and I know I am a prize worth having for she has my name
tattooed on her wrist and it was put there for a reason.
where I find myself now which is a happy place to be and I have a moment to
bask in this happiness because whatever she does and however much she might
hurt me, even inadvertently, I am able to forgive even if my initial reaction
is shock and shout as, and this is most important I love her UNCONDTIONALLY.
And this a very positive thing for her to know as I have no hang-ups, no
self-doubt and if I blow Hot and Cold that is just a mood swing disorder called
Unipolar/Bipolar which I admitted to her and she knows I suffer from as not
only does she know of my affliction but she also has it (small world) and I am
being professionally treated for it. Any other minor problems are therefore
just superficial and can be remedied. For the two greatest states of mind to be
in are 1) To be in love with someone who loves you back and 2) To experience an
unconditional love for someone who also loves you back in the same way. The
best of both worlds so Diana are you happy for your Facebook friend? And I thank you for allowing me to use you
for me to reach that conclusion that I am a very lucky boy for I am (if only
you knew who my idola is and I have not given away that secret, you would know
that she is one of the most desirable girls on Earth bereft of beauty, fame and
fortune, a winner in every sense of the word). And now she has won me for I am
hers no others and I know I am a prize worth having for she has my name
tattooed on her wrist and it was put there for a reason.
With my wish to make her even
more desirable I will look at this aspect; ‘What do I want in the perfect
wife’? (Having already established in my mind and therefore hers, as we share
that place and I share it gladly with her as I have nothing to hide from her
rough or smooth, that she already achieves the accolade of being a perfect 10) My
marriage guidance counsellor says that I am still allowed to ‘want’ things in a
partner even if you have reached a Nirvana in your relationship and in fact
will help both us to evolve and expand our love for she is not the kind of girl
to stand still and if things can get any better then let us ‘bring it on’.
more desirable I will look at this aspect; ‘What do I want in the perfect
wife’? (Having already established in my mind and therefore hers, as we share
that place and I share it gladly with her as I have nothing to hide from her
rough or smooth, that she already achieves the accolade of being a perfect 10) My
marriage guidance counsellor says that I am still allowed to ‘want’ things in a
partner even if you have reached a Nirvana in your relationship and in fact
will help both us to evolve and expand our love for she is not the kind of girl
to stand still and if things can get any better then let us ‘bring it on’.
I want us and our unconditional
love to evolve TOGETHER. I want us to share it, to find ourselves in more
intimate and meaningful places as a PARTNERSHIP, arm in arm together, us not
‘against the world’ but to find a special place and to be at one ‘with the
world’ and as I have been a celibate monk for nearly four years now I want ‘two
to become one’ for there is yet one more aspect to my love that she should know
and that is ‘she is the only woman in the world who turns me on’ intimately
that is and although I may use hard core porn when we are separated it is ‘us’
in my mind that performs the pornography and she has to get me worked up with
her photos first and I finish with her photos and I think about her night and
day with a true longing full of real desire. I hope you do not think that too
forward of me to mention it but really it is a very healthy place to be in. A
very special place to be in. I bet all other couples could wish for that to
happen to them as it would cut the divorce rate dramatically would it not? I
want to protect her and I want to harmonise with her in short ‘I just WANT her
in any way, shape or form that she presents herself in’. I only feel that she
might be reticent in coming forward with me on our journey because she does not
want me to wake up from my ‘Teenage Dream’ to an illusion as can happen to
couples as they take each step along their path together as they get closer and
she gave something away by saying ‘oh no did I get too close’ but she need not
concern herself with such things as I can spell out my own insecurities to her
up front unashamedly she won’t just discover them as we move closer and closer
and they are:-
love to evolve TOGETHER. I want us to share it, to find ourselves in more
intimate and meaningful places as a PARTNERSHIP, arm in arm together, us not
‘against the world’ but to find a special place and to be at one ‘with the
world’ and as I have been a celibate monk for nearly four years now I want ‘two
to become one’ for there is yet one more aspect to my love that she should know
and that is ‘she is the only woman in the world who turns me on’ intimately
that is and although I may use hard core porn when we are separated it is ‘us’
in my mind that performs the pornography and she has to get me worked up with
her photos first and I finish with her photos and I think about her night and
day with a true longing full of real desire. I hope you do not think that too
forward of me to mention it but really it is a very healthy place to be in. A
very special place to be in. I bet all other couples could wish for that to
happen to them as it would cut the divorce rate dramatically would it not? I
want to protect her and I want to harmonise with her in short ‘I just WANT her
in any way, shape or form that she presents herself in’. I only feel that she
might be reticent in coming forward with me on our journey because she does not
want me to wake up from my ‘Teenage Dream’ to an illusion as can happen to
couples as they take each step along their path together as they get closer and
she gave something away by saying ‘oh no did I get too close’ but she need not
concern herself with such things as I can spell out my own insecurities to her
up front unashamedly she won’t just discover them as we move closer and closer
and they are:-
1) Any
abuse she inflicts upon me will be met with a barrier of love and understanding
and a desire to confront it openly and to work it through but my insecurity is
that any abuse that I suffer makes me ignore my own needs and I do not look
after myself or my affairs I lose interest in looking after myself as I throw
myself wholeheartedly into her to cure her of this affliction but it is a
normal reaction to having an abusive partner in a relationship where the victim
does not want to take immediate flight and leave his or her abuser (sending a
text goodbye on the way!) to their own devices but wishes to remain in that
partnership as their love is truly unconditional and it is not just words but
is heartfelt and true and I want her to know that but not use it as an excuse
for heaping more abuse upon me but for her to realise it is going to be a waste
of her time in the long run and although it may spark an immediate reaction it
won’t change things or my unconditional love for her. So she may as well give
up that side of her persona and channel her efforts into more sweet productive things
because I am not normal and everything that hurts me makes me stronger. So the
more she tries it on the more resistance she will find and as she can’t beat me
in any power struggle learn that a partnership SHOULD BE JUST THAT NOT AN
EXCUSE TO FIGHT SOMEONE BECAUSE I AM ONE MAN YOU WILL NEVER BEAT IN ANY FIGHT,
I NEVER SURRENDER AND I FACE UP TO THE GOOD AS WELL AS THE BAD. Enough said.
abuse she inflicts upon me will be met with a barrier of love and understanding
and a desire to confront it openly and to work it through but my insecurity is
that any abuse that I suffer makes me ignore my own needs and I do not look
after myself or my affairs I lose interest in looking after myself as I throw
myself wholeheartedly into her to cure her of this affliction but it is a
normal reaction to having an abusive partner in a relationship where the victim
does not want to take immediate flight and leave his or her abuser (sending a
text goodbye on the way!) to their own devices but wishes to remain in that
partnership as their love is truly unconditional and it is not just words but
is heartfelt and true and I want her to know that but not use it as an excuse
for heaping more abuse upon me but for her to realise it is going to be a waste
of her time in the long run and although it may spark an immediate reaction it
won’t change things or my unconditional love for her. So she may as well give
up that side of her persona and channel her efforts into more sweet productive things
because I am not normal and everything that hurts me makes me stronger. So the
more she tries it on the more resistance she will find and as she can’t beat me
in any power struggle learn that a partnership SHOULD BE JUST THAT NOT AN
EXCUSE TO FIGHT SOMEONE BECAUSE I AM ONE MAN YOU WILL NEVER BEAT IN ANY FIGHT,
I NEVER SURRENDER AND I FACE UP TO THE GOOD AS WELL AS THE BAD. Enough said.
2) NO
MONEY, that is a great insecurity and has me beat but it does not mean I AM
BEATEN it just is beating me up, eating me up, or not eating in my case because
I know I could have money enough to match her wealth if I had not dropped out
of society as I knew it but I am afraid to say that if I had not followed the
sacrificial path that I did there would be no planet earth soon enough for her
to enjoy her spoils in so she should wake up and smell the coffee and if the
one you love can’t feed himself properly then get straight onto Fortnum &
Mason, Harrods or Selfridges and bloody well invest in your own future by
having hampers delivered to his bedside so he can be strong and healthy and
content to continue to give his love to the chosen one and to be there for her
and I will ask her to think what would be the outcome if it was her in abstract
poverty and I were the rich one. Would I just step over her turning my nose up
at her for being in that circumstance even if I loved her? Answer: The fuck I
would I would, I would move heaven and earth to find a way to alleviate her
problem and not only feed her but to lavish all that I had to give upon her as
I proved 3 weeks ago when I was promised a million US dollars and within 1
second of reading the typed confirmation that I was to be granted 1 million US
dollars I immediately offered the whole lot to her for something I knew would
make her the happiest girl in the world a Blue Diamond engagement ring worth
exactly one million dollars as not only a massive token of my love but for her
to think to herself either now or one day that fairy tales are true and her
Prince would give every single dime that he had just to try and make her happy.
Incidentally the bunch of record label executives who she introduced me to who
promised the money have not sent it yet and I suggest her immediate
intervention to facilitate an immediate transfer to my Bank so that I can have
her ring made should be right there at the forefront of her immediate things to
do list in her tiny little mind because I want HER ring to blow HER mind as was
the intention when I went in for the ‘killer close’ that Friday evening for it
was not myself or my needs I thought of to inspire me but it was HER that I
thought of ahead of myself and as we now have 3 weeks’ worth of interest on the
money with a further 6 weeks to go before the Diamond is sourced and set I
would be able to afford to be with her right now rather than blinking and
missing our moment, our chance to be happy where I could tell her I love her in
person rather than type to her friend on Facebook that I love her and she would
not need to feel guilty for not 1) Ordering an expensive hamper or 10 full of
nutrition. 2) Having a photo of her sent by a mutual Facebook friend showing
her dismay that I could not afford the air fare to go and watch her performance
in Italy instead of offering to pay the pittance to fly me out to watch her. (Thanks
I just got the thumbs up on the Bank transfer for tomorrow, good team
work-Magic) 3) Make me feel that our love has turned into a one sided affair
where I offer everything I have to give to her but she won’t bring herself to
pay a dime to help herself as well as me because if she thinks I am a good
loving fan when we are separated she will be blown away by my love is real act
burning up inside me just welling up for release. (At least I will try and make
a valiant effort for her) 4) Make me feel inadequate because I chose a
different path to her ‘material girl’ persona and listen to her shit about paying
the price if I want her and not to shirk at the cost as she is little else than
a high price call girl, a prostitute by any other name using that tactic and
she is far from that because with a million dollars in my Bank even though I
would only spend the interest on my journey to be with her the one million
remaining intact for her ring, I would have the reality to my self-belief that
I am a millionaire because I would be a confidant match for her and her untold
wealth which should be embraced as surely you do not love someone and revel in
their inadequacies lording it over them you lift them up to your level by any
means possible and I presented her with the means to do that so get that
million dollars transferred immediately or threaten to ‘down tools’ and ‘strike’
and to throw the ‘tantrum from hell’ if it is not paid and bring down the
throne then reinvent herself as the owner of the throne as she is sending her
one true love some very nice signals and messages at the moment which in any
decent love affair should not have to be bought up as they should just exist
organically because she should think more carefully that our love is not a game
, an internet video game or is it? but she should surely know by now that our
love is real and she should embrace that and if, for whatever reason and that
eludes me as to why that should be, she does not want to pay for our travelling
expenses to enjoy our love together then I have given her, on a silver plate,
the option of not spending anything but still allowing me to play in the same
league as her. The reason it eludes me is that she wants to get engaged and
therefore to marry and on that very happy day she will have to take the
traditional Christian vows of; love, honour and obey and to share 50:50 every
last dime she owns in the world with a nutter from the French Foreign Legion
who would eat the heart out of Geoffrey Dharmer before he could blink an eyelid
if he came within arm’s length of me, raw in cold blood washed down with blood
and if she so much as gets within arm’s length of another man even at a preshow
meet and greet to have selfish selfies taken I will arse fuck her mortal enemy
and give her the Blue Diamond ring but I will backdate my half of her fortune
and earnings to June 2014 and rob her blind with not so much as a tingle of
self-doubt or regret and if she is prepared to take that risk then our love
must be real as I trust her to look after me not humiliate me as she stands
upright shaking hands with fans and drops this ridiculous for a married woman
throwing her arms round strange men and saves that for the kids and she is
material girl threatening to put me under a bus if I claimed husbands rights at
our divorce like her first husband will be water off a ducks back because once
you are a veteran of front line action in a warzone anything else just becomes
plain sailing and I would dive at the bus with intent turning myself into the
Shaman for real and swallow up her bus then her. So why not be a good little
girl and make smooth our chosen path and journey and remember our courtship where
even if I was selling a Rainbow then I will add value to her not take it away
and I am an investment not a drain as I have spent the last 8 months proving.
MONEY, that is a great insecurity and has me beat but it does not mean I AM
BEATEN it just is beating me up, eating me up, or not eating in my case because
I know I could have money enough to match her wealth if I had not dropped out
of society as I knew it but I am afraid to say that if I had not followed the
sacrificial path that I did there would be no planet earth soon enough for her
to enjoy her spoils in so she should wake up and smell the coffee and if the
one you love can’t feed himself properly then get straight onto Fortnum &
Mason, Harrods or Selfridges and bloody well invest in your own future by
having hampers delivered to his bedside so he can be strong and healthy and
content to continue to give his love to the chosen one and to be there for her
and I will ask her to think what would be the outcome if it was her in abstract
poverty and I were the rich one. Would I just step over her turning my nose up
at her for being in that circumstance even if I loved her? Answer: The fuck I
would I would, I would move heaven and earth to find a way to alleviate her
problem and not only feed her but to lavish all that I had to give upon her as
I proved 3 weeks ago when I was promised a million US dollars and within 1
second of reading the typed confirmation that I was to be granted 1 million US
dollars I immediately offered the whole lot to her for something I knew would
make her the happiest girl in the world a Blue Diamond engagement ring worth
exactly one million dollars as not only a massive token of my love but for her
to think to herself either now or one day that fairy tales are true and her
Prince would give every single dime that he had just to try and make her happy.
Incidentally the bunch of record label executives who she introduced me to who
promised the money have not sent it yet and I suggest her immediate
intervention to facilitate an immediate transfer to my Bank so that I can have
her ring made should be right there at the forefront of her immediate things to
do list in her tiny little mind because I want HER ring to blow HER mind as was
the intention when I went in for the ‘killer close’ that Friday evening for it
was not myself or my needs I thought of to inspire me but it was HER that I
thought of ahead of myself and as we now have 3 weeks’ worth of interest on the
money with a further 6 weeks to go before the Diamond is sourced and set I
would be able to afford to be with her right now rather than blinking and
missing our moment, our chance to be happy where I could tell her I love her in
person rather than type to her friend on Facebook that I love her and she would
not need to feel guilty for not 1) Ordering an expensive hamper or 10 full of
nutrition. 2) Having a photo of her sent by a mutual Facebook friend showing
her dismay that I could not afford the air fare to go and watch her performance
in Italy instead of offering to pay the pittance to fly me out to watch her. (Thanks
I just got the thumbs up on the Bank transfer for tomorrow, good team
work-Magic) 3) Make me feel that our love has turned into a one sided affair
where I offer everything I have to give to her but she won’t bring herself to
pay a dime to help herself as well as me because if she thinks I am a good
loving fan when we are separated she will be blown away by my love is real act
burning up inside me just welling up for release. (At least I will try and make
a valiant effort for her) 4) Make me feel inadequate because I chose a
different path to her ‘material girl’ persona and listen to her shit about paying
the price if I want her and not to shirk at the cost as she is little else than
a high price call girl, a prostitute by any other name using that tactic and
she is far from that because with a million dollars in my Bank even though I
would only spend the interest on my journey to be with her the one million
remaining intact for her ring, I would have the reality to my self-belief that
I am a millionaire because I would be a confidant match for her and her untold
wealth which should be embraced as surely you do not love someone and revel in
their inadequacies lording it over them you lift them up to your level by any
means possible and I presented her with the means to do that so get that
million dollars transferred immediately or threaten to ‘down tools’ and ‘strike’
and to throw the ‘tantrum from hell’ if it is not paid and bring down the
throne then reinvent herself as the owner of the throne as she is sending her
one true love some very nice signals and messages at the moment which in any
decent love affair should not have to be bought up as they should just exist
organically because she should think more carefully that our love is not a game
, an internet video game or is it? but she should surely know by now that our
love is real and she should embrace that and if, for whatever reason and that
eludes me as to why that should be, she does not want to pay for our travelling
expenses to enjoy our love together then I have given her, on a silver plate,
the option of not spending anything but still allowing me to play in the same
league as her. The reason it eludes me is that she wants to get engaged and
therefore to marry and on that very happy day she will have to take the
traditional Christian vows of; love, honour and obey and to share 50:50 every
last dime she owns in the world with a nutter from the French Foreign Legion
who would eat the heart out of Geoffrey Dharmer before he could blink an eyelid
if he came within arm’s length of me, raw in cold blood washed down with blood
and if she so much as gets within arm’s length of another man even at a preshow
meet and greet to have selfish selfies taken I will arse fuck her mortal enemy
and give her the Blue Diamond ring but I will backdate my half of her fortune
and earnings to June 2014 and rob her blind with not so much as a tingle of
self-doubt or regret and if she is prepared to take that risk then our love
must be real as I trust her to look after me not humiliate me as she stands
upright shaking hands with fans and drops this ridiculous for a married woman
throwing her arms round strange men and saves that for the kids and she is
material girl threatening to put me under a bus if I claimed husbands rights at
our divorce like her first husband will be water off a ducks back because once
you are a veteran of front line action in a warzone anything else just becomes
plain sailing and I would dive at the bus with intent turning myself into the
Shaman for real and swallow up her bus then her. So why not be a good little
girl and make smooth our chosen path and journey and remember our courtship where
even if I was selling a Rainbow then I will add value to her not take it away
and I am an investment not a drain as I have spent the last 8 months proving.
Phew that was easy and I am glad
I took a break and went and howled at the moon instead of typing in the spur of
the moment something I later regretted but if I am allowed to ask for things I
simply ask for your hand in marriage dear Queen; ‘Will you do me the great honour
of making me the luckiest man in the world if not the most envied man too by
becoming my wife Official’? There that should give a major insight into my
intentions when I became your Internet Stalker last June it was for a reason
then untold but every day I continue to stalk it is stalking with the most honourable
of intentions=to make an honest woman of you as only an English Gentleman can
because you can take the money out of a Gentleman but you can’t take the
Gentleman out of the man and now I will melt you into a little secret I have
hidden from you my Brother took some $1,200,000 off me to look after safely for
my future as I am dangerous around money because Baby can I party when I want
to? And I will go get it in time for the wedding ring as ‘ceterus paribus’ I
got confirmation on the $1,008,000 for a Bank transfer tomorrow and it just
seems that it is real and the second my Bank confirms this I will give the Good
2 Go to the Jeweller for your engagement ring value $1,000,000 which will take
about 6 weeks to source the Blue Diamond and have it set in a Gold, Silver and
Platinum ring piece because it is I who chooses the engagement ring but it is
you who chooses the wedding ring and I would look after me carefully and open
your Magic doors because I INTENT to make another $1,000,000 available for your
wedding ring. I may not be able to feed myself or pay the gas bill but I sure
know how to look after my Baby girl and quite simply put my dreams are built
around you and your happiness above any wants or needs I may have for myself
because in your happiness I will find my own fulfilment but I can’t count my
chickens yet as you have to have me down on one knee with a ring then you have
to say ‘YES’ as I can’t talk for you, it is you who have to make your own mind
up but you just said ‘I don’t deal with insecurities’ so make them vanish by
stopping emotional abuse and replace it with a more physical torture to be
administered by…..(let me think) I know a ‘Killer Queen’ do you think you could
learn to live that role, I know it’s asking a lot of you and you probably have
no idea (Ahem sic!! Cough, Cough into my white hankie we don’t want to give the
game away to KatyCat Diana do I? but it looks like on the face of it it’s going
to be a win win situation for both of us in our Internet game of ‘kiss chase’
the Queen 2015 style and we are using her timeline as a message board in the
morning because I am a lawyer and I know ‘Justice must be seen to have been
done’ so although you are reading my love post as I type after you know what it
is in my mind and what I am going to say before I type it, I will of course
post and Blogg this with one of your best looking photos and with 48,000 in my
collection I am sure to choose a good one, my Killer Queen) of how to be that Killer
Queen but at our wedding I take the same vows of “LOVE, HONOUR AND OBEY” and in
the word ‘OBEY’ I give the game away the rest you can Google about with key
words #English Public Schools #Madame Sin #WhipsandChains #Handcuffs #SandM
#DOMINATRIX you’ll get the hang of ‘IT’ for you are the chosen one and I don’t
choose a wrong un’ who can’t ACT but I make careful considerations over a
protracted period of time so that not only can you amass enough evidence to
come to your own conclusion upon my eligibility to become your partner but also
for me to gauge your suitability to become Killer Queen to my Slave King persona
and I don’t need any more time to see if I wish to push ‘rewind’ and I am more
inclined to push ‘fast-forward’ I AM THAT I AM that sure you measure up to my
exacting standards and here I am hoping to hear you sing UNCONDITIONALLY to me
oh look Magic here it comes ‘there is no fear now’ ‘just open up your heart and
let it in’ and the answer is “YES I WILL DO THE SAME FOR YOU”. Because ‘I AM
FREE’. “I WILL LOVE YOU ETERNALLY”. I’ll
say something funny, something sweet but you will never be able to stop me saying
‘”I LOVE YOU” because I am going to keep this secret but it is going to be my
mantra around you yours can be “HUMMINGBIRD HEARTBEAT” and with that gem of
wisdom do you think I have given away enough to KatyCat Diana in order for her
to guess your hidden identity and therefore pass this message onto you for your
approval >3:XD (something funny=”I don’t know where the fuck you are hiding”?
something sweet=”In the end all that really matters is #LOVE”). If only you
knew the words to ‘FIREWORK’ you would make my year, Umm Not bad but it is your
‘FAV’ after all maybe you have been practicing on your Grand Tour of Europe, it
came to me your in Prague as you have to give me your finger ring size tomorrow
(Enshalla) or your world won’t stop spinning “OMG it’s just the beginning”
there I finished your sentence for you.
I took a break and went and howled at the moon instead of typing in the spur of
the moment something I later regretted but if I am allowed to ask for things I
simply ask for your hand in marriage dear Queen; ‘Will you do me the great honour
of making me the luckiest man in the world if not the most envied man too by
becoming my wife Official’? There that should give a major insight into my
intentions when I became your Internet Stalker last June it was for a reason
then untold but every day I continue to stalk it is stalking with the most honourable
of intentions=to make an honest woman of you as only an English Gentleman can
because you can take the money out of a Gentleman but you can’t take the
Gentleman out of the man and now I will melt you into a little secret I have
hidden from you my Brother took some $1,200,000 off me to look after safely for
my future as I am dangerous around money because Baby can I party when I want
to? And I will go get it in time for the wedding ring as ‘ceterus paribus’ I
got confirmation on the $1,008,000 for a Bank transfer tomorrow and it just
seems that it is real and the second my Bank confirms this I will give the Good
2 Go to the Jeweller for your engagement ring value $1,000,000 which will take
about 6 weeks to source the Blue Diamond and have it set in a Gold, Silver and
Platinum ring piece because it is I who chooses the engagement ring but it is
you who chooses the wedding ring and I would look after me carefully and open
your Magic doors because I INTENT to make another $1,000,000 available for your
wedding ring. I may not be able to feed myself or pay the gas bill but I sure
know how to look after my Baby girl and quite simply put my dreams are built
around you and your happiness above any wants or needs I may have for myself
because in your happiness I will find my own fulfilment but I can’t count my
chickens yet as you have to have me down on one knee with a ring then you have
to say ‘YES’ as I can’t talk for you, it is you who have to make your own mind
up but you just said ‘I don’t deal with insecurities’ so make them vanish by
stopping emotional abuse and replace it with a more physical torture to be
administered by…..(let me think) I know a ‘Killer Queen’ do you think you could
learn to live that role, I know it’s asking a lot of you and you probably have
no idea (Ahem sic!! Cough, Cough into my white hankie we don’t want to give the
game away to KatyCat Diana do I? but it looks like on the face of it it’s going
to be a win win situation for both of us in our Internet game of ‘kiss chase’
the Queen 2015 style and we are using her timeline as a message board in the
morning because I am a lawyer and I know ‘Justice must be seen to have been
done’ so although you are reading my love post as I type after you know what it
is in my mind and what I am going to say before I type it, I will of course
post and Blogg this with one of your best looking photos and with 48,000 in my
collection I am sure to choose a good one, my Killer Queen) of how to be that Killer
Queen but at our wedding I take the same vows of “LOVE, HONOUR AND OBEY” and in
the word ‘OBEY’ I give the game away the rest you can Google about with key
words #English Public Schools #Madame Sin #WhipsandChains #Handcuffs #SandM
#DOMINATRIX you’ll get the hang of ‘IT’ for you are the chosen one and I don’t
choose a wrong un’ who can’t ACT but I make careful considerations over a
protracted period of time so that not only can you amass enough evidence to
come to your own conclusion upon my eligibility to become your partner but also
for me to gauge your suitability to become Killer Queen to my Slave King persona
and I don’t need any more time to see if I wish to push ‘rewind’ and I am more
inclined to push ‘fast-forward’ I AM THAT I AM that sure you measure up to my
exacting standards and here I am hoping to hear you sing UNCONDITIONALLY to me
oh look Magic here it comes ‘there is no fear now’ ‘just open up your heart and
let it in’ and the answer is “YES I WILL DO THE SAME FOR YOU”. Because ‘I AM
FREE’. “I WILL LOVE YOU ETERNALLY”. I’ll
say something funny, something sweet but you will never be able to stop me saying
‘”I LOVE YOU” because I am going to keep this secret but it is going to be my
mantra around you yours can be “HUMMINGBIRD HEARTBEAT” and with that gem of
wisdom do you think I have given away enough to KatyCat Diana in order for her
to guess your hidden identity and therefore pass this message onto you for your
approval >3:XD (something funny=”I don’t know where the fuck you are hiding”?
something sweet=”In the end all that really matters is #LOVE”). If only you
knew the words to ‘FIREWORK’ you would make my year, Umm Not bad but it is your
‘FAV’ after all maybe you have been practicing on your Grand Tour of Europe, it
came to me your in Prague as you have to give me your finger ring size tomorrow
(Enshalla) or your world won’t stop spinning “OMG it’s just the beginning”
there I finished your sentence for you.
KatyCat Hudson “I LOVE YOU
UNCONDITIONALLY” make me Mr Katy Perry please.
UNCONDITIONALLY” make me Mr Katy Perry please.
#LOVEJOHN4HELOVESU Feeling
hopeful about the million dollar deal later on today listening to Katy Perry [#HOW2SAY
#ILOVEYOU IN Words=16,314]
hopeful about the million dollar deal later on today listening to Katy Perry [#HOW2SAY
#ILOVEYOU IN Words=16,314]
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